Sandi Loraine Cobb

COBB, Sandi Loraine of Mesquite, born July 29, 1982 in Dallas Texas, passed away May 3, 2003. Survived by daughter, Maddisson Cobb of Mesquite; mother & step-father, Cheryl & Vincent Young of Mesquite; father & step-mother, David & Debbie Cobb of Tyler, TX; sisters, Chasity Cobb & fiance,Arron Stanfield of Mesquite, Lyndsey Young of Garland; brothers, David Cobb. & Cameron Cobb of Tyler; grandmother, Sandra Reynolds of Emory; several cousins, aunts and uncles. Services will be 11:00AM Friday May 9, 2003, at the New Hope Funeral Home Chapel with Rev. Walter Evans, officiating. Interment will be in Mesquite City Cemetery. Family requests memorials be made to the Maddisson Cobb Trust Fund, c/o any Wells Fargo Bank across the United States. Family will receive friends at the funeral home Thursday evening from 6:00PM - 8:00PM. FOR MY PRECIOUS DAUGHTER, SANDI LORAINE COBB From the day in late October of 1981, when I was skating at Broadway Skating Rink with friends and had fallen down, landing on my tummy, hurting my right knee, I knew that you were inside my body. Don't ask me how, I just knew before a doctor confirmed it in late January of 1982. From that day forward, the excitement of being with child again, brought new joy for us and made our little family of 3, turn to 4! I just knew you were a boy while inside me, as you were a rowdy little baby, kicking and squirming inside me, anxious to get out as if you had so much to do, and so little time to do it in. I have told this story to you many times as you were growing up, do you remember? You finally made your arrival on a hot July morning very early, at 5:27 a.m. and what a PRECIOUS SURPRISE I got, thinking you were a boy, but secretly wanting another girl, so that Chasity would have a little sister instead of a bunch of little brothers like I had, someone she could be close with and share all of the secrets that sisters share. You were the most beautiful baby I had ever seen, next to Chasity. You were so alert and when they laid you on my tummy, you grabbed my finger with your tiny little hand and it was then, at that moment, I knew you were something very special, not just because God had chosen me to be your mommy, but there was something just so special, I can't explain it still to this day. You had to stay in the hospital a whole week because you had yellow jaundice. When I had to go home 5 days later without you, well, it almost killed me! But you had to stay under the lights with patches on your little eyes so that your little liver could function outside my body, and to see you like that, well only a mother understands the pain of feeling so helpless and I knew I had to trust in God to take care of you and He did! How hot it was when they called me the morning of August 5th, to come pick you up and take you home. Chasity and I couldn't wait! I had gotten a beautiful little green dress to bring you home in, but chose the little orange jumper instead so you wouldn't be so hot, as we had no air conditioner in our car. It was a joyous occassion to finally get to hold you, love you and care for you when we got home. We spent lots of sleepless nights, because you hated pacifiers. I can still see me trying to put one in your mouth until I could get the bottle ready for you and you spitting it out, clear across the room. I am smiling at this picture in my mind to this day. Watching you grow up from my sweet little baby girl with brown hair and blue eyes, then to see it all fall out and come back in like a little cotton top, so white blonde, still with blue eyes always a happy baby, to the sweetest, loving, most caring little child, always sharing with everyone whatever you had, trying to follow your older sister to the store at age 2 1/2 years old, scaring us half to death at that time, being there for you when you were hurt, kissing the boo boo's away, coming to you when you had nightmares, scaring the boogie man away and telling you I was there, everything would be alright. Seeing your sweet spirit always helping others as you got older, hating it whenever others made fun of others, plus your sister, trying to take up for her even then......... You were so funny! God really gave you a great sense of humor, my darling Sandi Rain. When I was sad or having a bad day, seeing your bright little smile somehow made everything alright for that day. You and I were so close, you liked everything I liked and when you were two years old, you could sing our song back to me; "You And Me Against The World," as I sang this to you while I was carrying you inside my body. Coming to all of your choir concerts as you went to Tisinger Elementary School and then being there when you made the Mesquite All Girls Choir because you truly had a voice like an angel and you could sing like nobody's business! Seeing you get saved at the tender age of 9 years old, seeing the excitement of coming to know our Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ, watching you perform on the Tiger's Drill Team at every game they played in 1991 and then making Cheerleader in 1993, these memories I will cherish forever! To see you become a beautiful young teenager with all the problems teens had to face at that time, us talking, sharing them together, sometimes not, but always momma loving you for being so loving, sweet and honest of your feelings. Oh you had a temper, yes you did, but even through the angriest of times, we never stopped loving one another. Then in 9th grade at Mesquite High School, coming to see you as Head Captian of the Maroon Brigade, watching you cheer the football team on, these memories too will I cherish in my heart forever. Facing all the heartaches that went along with being an older teenager, being there with you when you re-affirmed your faith in God and being baptised at 14, and how you handled things and helped others, was simply amazing! Being there for you when you had your first love break your heart, I am glad I was there for you to wipe away the tears. When I fell down the stairs at work in 1999, injuring my leg and finding out you were going to have a child of you own, being in shock at first, but then the shock wore off and I was so excited to finally get to become a grandmother and have a little extension of you, Chasity and I! How proud I was and I never, ever turned my back on you, nor held it against you, that is what real love is all about. When you had Maddisson that warm night at 11:33 p.m. in May, was another of the JOYS in my lifetime. The circle seemed complete now. I knew that you were so young and the picture of you lovingly looking at your newborn baby daughter, well that is a priceless moment caught in time and I am so happy that I have it with me. It was hard for me to let you go after you had Maddisson, one of the hardest things I, at that time, thought I would ever go through. You know, there was something else in my heart that I just knew and that was, that God had a plan for me when I fell down those stairs, but I sure didn't know that this would be His plan, to have to take you back home so soon! You had gone back to school to get your High School Diploma and then had plans to go to college last fall in 2003, to start majoring in classes to become a psycologist and having your whole life ahead of you, but God had a different plan, one that I still to this day, do not understand, but honey, I am trusting in His promises and He alone, has finally brought me to a place of peace and comfort about your death, but momma, Chasity, Maddisson, Vince and the rest of us are missing your presence in our lives so very, very much. Not being able to hear you laughter, seeing your sweet face, baby blue eyes, seeing you in person, feeling your arms around me, that is what is the hardest of all to accept. That warm Spring night on May 2nd, when we got the news about your accident, I was praying all the way there on our way to the hospital, for God to let you wait for me to get there to be with you so that you would know I was there, us getting to the hospital and God answeringmy prayers, waiting on me to get to you before He truly took you home with him, letting you hear us, Chasity, Arron and I in that cold Emergency Room, and Chasity and I spoke to you to let you know that we were both there and your were not alone, God letting you hear me sing our song to you and He gave me a miracle by letting you hear me singing it, because as I finished the song, a tear welled up in your left eye and 2 tears rolled down your right cheek, then I felt a warmth go right through my body, as you went quitely away, HOME WITH OUR LORD. They had to do some sort of brain function test that lasted for 12 hours, to see if any brain activity would start back up and at one point and time, they opened your eyes, and to have to be there and see what used to be such beautiful, sparkling blue eyes full of life, with only a blank stare, it all came rushing back to me, of that time I had to let you go when Maddisson was born, and it wasn't even close to the horrific pain of the harsh reality knowingthat you were truly gone, that was THE HARDEST THING MOMMA EVER HAD TO DO IN HER WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE! But God gave me another miracle from 2:45 a.m. until 3:03 a.m., as I came back from just outside your room in the Severe Intensive Care Unit, as I sat down after kissing your little monkey toes and pretty little feet, and I slipped my left had under your left hand, you were able to lift your hand and mine, straight up off the bed, holding on for dear life, cutting of the circulation in my fingers and I asked the nurse if this was the response that we were looking for, she said to me; "No honey, talk to her, she is still here." So, I told you all of the things we had talked about in our lives, how much I loved you and would never stop, would always take care of Maddisson and see to it, that she went to church to get to know God, asking if He would let you stay with me, I would take care of you for the rest of my life, but if He was calling you home with him, to go ahead and go, but go only to the bright, white light, Jesus would be waiting for you there and momma and grandmother would be there to help you on over. Telling you how very much I was going to miss you, but I would be alright, then I kissed your sweet hand and it fell back on the bed, like a rock sinking in water.I know we will meet again in Heaven, so until that day comes, I will rest in God's arms and take care of the precious legacy that you left behind in little Maddisson and I thank God for you and He leaving me with a part of you to watch grow up all over again.......... I cannot say good-bye anymore, so I will say "Hello" instead, because when it is my turn to come your way up above, you will be there to meet me and say; "WELCOME HOME." I cannot wait until that day comes, so you rest my BEAUTIFUL GIRL, until we meet again: I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AND CHERISH THE MEMORIES OF YOU IN MY HEART. GOD ONLY KNOWS HOW MUCH WE MISS YOU,WE LOVE YOU STILL, AND GOD TAKES CARE OF US ALL EVERDAY............ All my love to you and Jesus forever and always, Momma, Chasity, Maddisson and Vince